I moved into a new apartment (my first home) last September, and I STILL don't feel settled.
I have acknowledged to myself that I'm just not as happy as I was. I find this disturbing cause I spent quite a bit on some renovations such as new carpet, new paint, etc, and I DO like the place, and it DOES look very nice, and I can walk to work in 10 minutes, and it's near some shops, it's got a pool (that I've never used cause I'm too embarrassed to be seen in a bikini), we've got 2 beautiful kittens, and the neighbours are quiet, but...
I STILL for some reason miss my old apartment!! It was nowhere near as nice, it was tired and old, we couldn't have any pets cause we rented, the neighbours were horribly noisy and inconsiderate, we didn't have a lid on our green rubbish bin, lol, there was a tree outside the bedroom window that when windy would bash against the window and keep us awake at night...but...I miss the location. I could walk to the beach in seconds. I could walk to my favourite place in the world in 10 minutes and now we have to get a bus and then do an unpleasant 10 minute walk...I miss the cat that would come and visit us even though now I've got my own 2 furry sons. And we're on the ground floor here so I feel very exposed. Before we were on the first floor and I felt much more free and anonymous. I used to go out on the balcony and look over at the Surfers Paradise lights at night...it was nice...but now, there's no lights, and I don't want to go out on the patio (even though we've spent a heap getting lots of gorgeous plants there and outdoor furniture) cause I feel so exposed by people walking back and forth all the time. I also like to leave the curtains open at night to get some kind of view or lights from buildings in (not that there are any now), but my partner's not comfortable doing this now as anyone who walks by could just look in. Not that they probably would, but you know.
I knew all of this stuff before we bought and it's ok, but...I just thought I'd have adjusted by now.
I just keep daydreaming of a much bigger apartment...in my dream location (which was 10 mins away from my old apartment)...and I wonder why...maybe it's a big expectation I've got and pressure to LOVE my very first property, and I feel bad that I sort of don't...
Has anyone else experienced anything like this?
My best friend rents still, but she moved to an area in Melbourne she'd never lived in before (Boronia for anyone who knows Melbourne) and while she didn't mind the area and liked the townhouse, she found she just didn't feel at home there. So a year later she moved back to Carnegie where she'd lived before that, and which was near to the areas she'd always lived beforehand...and now she's back "home" again. I wonder if this is me.